Monday, March 7, 2016

Joy In The Journey |1|

I remember my prayers as a new believer.  They were selfish and bossy.  I wanted God to give me what I wanted, when I wanted it.  And then I would find myself hurt and confused when things didn't turn out the way I planned.

Praise God that growth is a part of a relationship with him, or in life I would find myself disappointed more often than not.  Because as it seems, my way isn't always the right one.
 I've been begging God to fix certain situations in my life for quite sometime now.  I've asked Him to mend broken relationships, to heal broken hearts, and begged for salvation for some of the people I love most.

Well over a year has passed and I've seen God working in the hearts of people around me, and I've been incredibly thankful for that.  But the situations that I was sure would be resolved by now remain unchanged. The hearts around me are still breaking, and not one of the people I've been praying for have made the decision to turn their lives over to Christ....yet.

I've been hurt more than I ever thought possible.  I've been on my knees crying out to God more the past two years than I have in all of my 28 years put together. 

But the funny thing is...while I was praying for the people around me... my heart was the one that changed. 

Now I know what it's like to put my trust in my sweet Savior completely.  Now I know what it's like to hand Him every last one of my broken pieces and watch Him put them back together, and then make them more beautiful than I ever could have imagined.  Now I know what it's like to make Him the source of my joy and peace.  And now I know what it's like to hand my will over to the One who is sovereign over everything and completely trust His will for my life.

You see, there will always be problems in this life and that's something we will never be able to control.  But I can control my response, my attitude, and the extent to which I trust God to handle those problems and release them to Him.

So today I'm thankful for every problem I've faced.  Because they are all reminders of how big my God is.  He has strengthened and softened my heart at the same time, which has enabled me to love the people in my life without condition.  And the peace that comes with whole-heartedly knowing He will bring good out of every problem is worth the pain I've experienced to finally reach this place in my heart.  This pure, peaceful and joyful place.

 |Joy In The Journey is a new blog series that will be posted as I am led to share.| ♡

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